Razor Night!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009, 2:15AM

I was out today with a friend this evening. It’s all good, I was having fun. Too bad …I don’t really feel good tonight. I can't sleep. Suddenly~ I feel hurt. How lame!? It’s NOT about that friend-date; it’s about everything.

ABOUT STUPID WHEEL

Life sucks so badly
Life, You, Me; It’s just bullshit!
People says that life is like in a wheel
Sometimes you’re ups
And sometimes you’re down
Sometimes you’ll be happy
And sometimes you should feel sore
IT’S BULLSHIT!
Life sick! Worst after another!
Life, You, Me; Hell it is BULLSHIT!
I don’t know about others;
But me; ITS WORST THAT WHAT YOU THOUGHT
Life, You, Me; I can’t really tell HOW!!
People says that life is like in a wheel
I wonder WHEN will my wheel turns up
I wonder WHEN it be BETTER
The wheel NEVER turns UP!
How Lame!?
WHY it is JUST me!?
Fuck!
The wheel stuck longer to be at a bottom
Longer then anyone’s
…
SORE!

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Friday, March 13, 2009, 9:10PM

…again I’m gonna write about a loser’s lifestyle~

When everyone is feeling happy
Definitely I’m the one who feel bad
When everyone is cheers with blessed things
I’ll be the one who fakes smiles and feeling sore from the insides
Jumping like madness and making stupid clown-faces around!
I hate everyone and I hate everything!
I just don’t know what to do...

Again; some people might says that this is a silly-writing; readers or friends might says that this is a silly stuff to know; I DON’T CARE! You know NOTHING about me! Not even GOD OR GODDESS TO KNOW! Not even my parents! Mum, Dad! YOU JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND! READ THIS! Come on! FUCK-READ IT!!!

Tired; home ride from schools makes me tired too bad I can’t make myself sleep in this fucking hour! I don’t feel like wanna live. It’s like I don’t really care if I live or die no more; and while coming back from school to my house, I was like, “If I am in a car accident; I will not care about if only I die or live. But I hope that I’ll die!” it’s just too hard to explain, “WHY!?”…And while feeling like shit for a few days now; I feel like imagining a few ugly designs that says, “HELL, BITCH THIS IS ME!! A LOSER BLACK HEARTED 24/7!!” (Whatever~)

Friends keep talking about love thingy. LOVE love LOVE Love LOVE love and LOVE!!! They’re everywhere!! The loves ALL is in the airs! Too bad I am not any person that can reach those fucking thing! I hate Love! I hate Love! I hate everyone! And I have everything that sounds like love! … I just hate everything! I swear if I meet any cupid in person I’ll tear off their wings and breaks all of their annoying love-arch! (Idiot~)

… Can’t really write EVERYTHING in here as those entire sore things is driving me nuts every single minute! Not all about love but again I am feeling like I’M SICK OF BURDENS!!! I’m sick of being HOPE every single days and I HATE TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITIES THAT I’VE HOLD FOR SO LONG!!!

I ban on everything and I curse at anything!

Trying to find any things that can make me feel better; a razor or anything that can transmit my pain coz loud songs can’t help NO MORE! But too bad; I CANT FIND ANY FUCKING RAZOR!!! I CAN’T FIND ANYTHING THAT CAN REALLY WIPE THOSE PAINS!!! Bouncing my head to the ground or wall hard-loud will makes EVERYONE TO PAY ATTENTIONS (I DON'T WANT THAT!!!); it takes my PRIVACY OFF (of course!!) So TELL ME WHAT I CAN DO TO MAKE IT JUST END!!?? I don’t feel like wanna talk to anyone; it’s just making things worst or bad BECAUSE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS! Hence; they’re not trustworthy~ …Leaving myself alone again~

…You just don’t understand~

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P/s: ...bored~ Old un-published post is here too. Can't sleep~

-Bandagedknee AKA Your; Broken Medusa-